Remembering

I don't know why but I have been thinking a lot about September 11. I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing that morning. Riley was only 2 1/2 and he was in his high chair eating toast and I was watching the today show. I slowly watched as the events of that morning took place and my world felt like it was ripped from me.

I called my mom and told her to turn the tv on and then I cried as I waited for Jeremy to call. He was at work on the navy base in Newport RI and they were on lockdown. He came home later that day and we both just sobbed...For the loss of life, the loss of feeling safe and just the sheer magnitude of evil in the world. We later found out that Jeremy's cousins husband was killed at the pentagon where he worked. It made it even more real. For days we cried as we were glued to the stories being shown over the news.

The day before, September 10, we found out we were expecting Lorenzo. We had had quite a struggle getting pregnant with him and we were elated! I felt terrible to have joy about the pregnancy while so much destruction, pain, and loss was around us. It was quite a while before we felt like we could share happy news.

I'll never forget Riley. At 2 1/2 he was able to sense that things were not what they were. He saw the planes hit on the news that morning and I had to explain to him that there were real bad guys out there. It's one of his earliest memories and even that still makes me sad.

I don't know why this has been weighing on my heart as of late but I just want to say I have not forgotten!

Meet Scout

After loosing Tink we all felt so lonely and sad, so we decided we needed some cheering up! No one can be sad with a new puppy in the house so that's what we did!
Scout is our 13 week old Sheltie and she has made life without tink a little easier.

2013 is getting better

Thank you January for at least letting the Temps be kind to us! I could get used to this!

RIP Tinkerbell 10/2002-01/02/2015

Yesterday after returning from Utah Jeremy, Riley and Lorenzo came home and let the dogs out. After a few min. piper came back but tink did not. Liam and I were on a separate flight and I had called to find out if they made it home ok. When I called, Riley told me they could not find tink and that Jeremy was out Looking for her. I got Liam a drink and then we boarded the plane. Right before I had to turn my phone off I texted Jeremy to see if they had found Tink. His reply back was " she drowned". Liam saw the text and we both spent the next 2 1/2 hr flight home crying.

I guess tink wandered into our neighbors yard and fell into their pool. The neighbor came over and got Jeremy as soon as she found her. We are not sure why she went over into the their yard or how she fell in the pool. The best we could come up with is that she may have been sick or disoriented due to an eye infection or maybe even lost her vision and stumbled into the pool. Needless to say we are all devastated.

Riley got Tink for Christmas in 2002, the year Lorenzo was born. She has been with us through 4 moves and has been the kids best friend. Riley used to have major anxiety about something happening to Tink and it has been especially hard on him. He was up until 2:00am last night just sobbing. It was heart breaking.

Even though tink drove me nuts, and I think she found joy in torturing me, I am so shocked and saddened that she is gone. I keep thinking that I did not say goodbye or that she may have been sick and I was not here to help her. Jeremy and Riley buried her underneath our hammock trees and Riley was so strong. He wrapped her in a soft towel and said goodbye before he helped Jeremy bury her. I don't know why, but it really bothers me that she is in the back yard. I have been struggling with this. Part of me feels like I need to go get her or that she was just asleep as that was how Jeremy described her when he placed her down to rest. I am hoping that time will help me to get over it, as of right now I can't go out in the back yard.

Tinkerbell, we thought you had 9 lives. You survived being dropped on your head in HI by a neighbor kid. Falling over 10 feet from our tree house when again, a neighbor kicked you off. You have had trouble walking, still managed to eat even though you lost most of your teeth in the tree house incident. I just never thought you would leave us. We will miss you!!!

James Taylor and Ben Taylor - western cowboy

last night Jeremy and I went to see James Taylor and it was wonderful!!!! When we lived in Hawaii I would worry that I would never be able to see a J.T. concert with Jeremy. I was afraid that he may not be touring much longer and I would not get to share something I love so much with someone I love so much. So I am glad I can say I no longer need worry about that lol.
He performed with his son, Ben, whom I happen to love. He sounds so much like his dad. I remember I used to be so happy thinking that James Taylor's music would live on in his handsome look-a-like son but their music is very different from each other. I still enjoyed every min. of it :)

"Come What May and Love it"

This is one of my all time favorite talks!!!! I remind myself when things seem unfair or don't go the way I would like about this. I really want to have this quote done in vinyl and put it up on my wall, I think that is just the thing I need to have a more postive outlook on life and the struggles we all face.

Oh Liam!!!!

I just love this boy!