Well after I picked Lorenzo up from school yesterday I was hoping that he had had a better day, I was wrong! He ended up crying for over an hour in the morning and then at Lunch again and he was crying when I picked him up. I talked with the teacher and she does not know what to do. Everyone seems to be out sick this week so she was sending him to the office. I understand that you can't have him disrupting the rest of the class but there is supposed to be someone there to help him when he gets that way. I came home and called his doctor after that and he wanted to see Lorenzo this morning, so we went there at 9:00 and Lorenzo was having a lot of anxiety about school and the doctor noticed it right away. He also had lost a couple of pounds and I told the doctor that he has not eating very well and his snack I send him to school with is coming home every day. lorenzo has been complaining that his tummy hurts all the time the last week and I am pretty sure it is the stress and anxiety, we have been through this before. Well to make a long story short, we are going to add celexa back into his medicine regime but at a very low dose. This was the medicine that helped so much a little over a year ago but then Lorenzo started having more of the outbursts, rages, and Meltdowns that lasted days so we are going to take it slow and see if it helps. The nice thing if it works is that we will gradually take him off the other anxiety med.'s he is on now.
I think part of me is still in denial about this whole thing. I know something is not right, I have know basically since he was born but there is also a part of me that thinks no, he is normal he is going to snap out of this. If we have a few days or weeks that go well I think, OK, he is better things are going to be ok. But we always seem to end up back here. We have been spiraling downward for the last couple of weeks, but part of me just does not want to deal with it. I am seeing more of the highs and lows lately and it just breaks my heart. He has also been doing other strange things like when he eats it is like he goes into a trance. He closes his eyes and gets this glazed over strange look. i do not even know how to explain it.
There have been a lot of shown on tv lately about autism. I do not watch a lot of tv and I missed the one on oprah but a friend of mine told me about it and i was able to read about it online. I was able, however, to catch a similar program on Larry king Live a couple of weeks ago and it alarmed me how many similar characteristics Lorenzo had with the kids they were talking about. The only thing is Lorenzo is vocal and is not detached. In fact that is just opposite. But the way they play and the repetitiveness. The rocking back and forth and strange body movements. The problems with bowles and digestive systems. it makes me think that maybe the Autism spectrum is a whole lot bigger then people are giving credit. I wonder if that spectrum will open up to include more of the mental disorders or vise versa.
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